Mary Beth Lawler Art Blog
My "cranial prosthesis" has arrived and I'm still chuckling over the words "cranial prosthesis". It's from the Latin for fake head. I like this style so much I want to do this for real when my hair grows back. My eyelashes are falling out now, but my dear friend Florence bought me some new ones. Isn't it grand that in this age of technology we can repair, replace or enhance just about anything? So here we have, fake hair, fake eyelashes, contacts and this afternoon I'm going to stop at CVS and buy a tan. I'm no proponent of surgical enhancement, I don't think I'd ever go that far but now I do understand the impact that physical appearance can have on the psyche. I am happy to go around with no hair, it's great! Everyone should try it. The hair and eyelashes and cosmetics are really for other people's comfort. It makes them feel better that you don't look "sick". I can see the relief on people's faces when they see me for the first time post surgery, because "I look so good". The second chemo treatment was fine, I was loaded up on steriods so I felt great. The following six days, not so much. It takes longer each time to snap back from the assault. As an artist I place a very high importance on the aesthetically pleasing. I always try to surround myself with beautiful things, in that environment I can be more creative. When I'm surrounded by crap I have to neurotically rearrange everything into some description of order before I can work. The same is true in appearance, if I feel presentable then everything is OK. It follows that if I go to the supermarket looking like hell, it's a guarantee I will run into someone I know. Once again, I thank you for your messages of support, they mean a great deal.