The Artist's Muse Art Blog
We have said goodbye to several great artists in recent weeks: Michael Jackson, Michael Mazur, Larry Knechtel, to mention a few. It makes me cognizant of the fact that artist__™s pay a price for the exposure whether they practice visual, performing, or literary arts. The risk of expressing oneself in any medium is of an existential nature. It is who we are. I can choose whether or not to share that vulnerable, expressive place inside me with others or I can isolate and never experience the camaraderie and satisfaction of having been seen and heard. There are pros and cons to each chosen path. But at the end of the day, if I have created something and no one sees it, no one sees me.
Having struggled with artist__™s block in recent months (which I attribute to the bustle of activity in my exterior life), I developed a strategy for re-entry. However, the road back takes time and my soul is in desperate need of coaxing. An idea occurred me that might work as a means of warming myself up, readying myself for a creative burst. Some might find this Zen-like concept is a bit corny, but when I did it, it helped. I felt closer to creating than I had in a long while. Rest and be with your materials. I surrounded myself with brushes, inks, papers, paints, mosaic tiles, or the tools of my trade. I smelled them, held them, and felt their weight in my hands. The musty smell of my studio even satisfied my hungry nostrils. Ten minutes. Twenty minutes. Thirty minutes. Next time forty-five minutes. I just sat with them and dreamed of the moment a loaded brush touches thirsty paper and the sticky feel of grout all over my hands. Like reacquainting myself with an old friend, rebuilding trust and making plans for our next date.
I saw Jeff Koons "Puppy" while in Bilbao, Spain a while ago. I was tickled when I saw a bride and groom posing in front of it for a photograph, and even more so when I saw a little dog proudly standing at the base of the sculpture while his owner snapped a picture. I remind myself how amusing these moments are and wonder how I can best hold on to them and create from them.